Creed – My Own Prison (Official Video)

Album: My Own Prison (1997)
Charted:  54
Creed guitarist Mark Tremonti wrote the music to this song, and lead singer Scott Stapp composed the lyrics, which are about his struggles with life at a time when he was questioning his faith. He realized he had created a prison within his own mind.

After Creed became wildly popular (and at the same time, reviled), Stapp created another kind of prison for himself with drug addiction, alcoholism, and a series of unflattering incidents the tabloids lapped up.

Vin Jay – Addicted (Music Video)


I just want the pain to fucking go away I swear to God they’ll probably never understand me Sick of just walking around, pretending I’m happy Feel like collapsing from all weight that I carry But I just keep it pushing and pop me another Xanny

Know it’s sad but I remember as a kid it was rough Always thought we had it all, what I was missing was love And always drowning in some waters that were thicker than blood

Still they wonder how the fuck I got addicted to drugs, damn But they don’t get that I’m avoiding feeling pain Only time I feel alive is when there’s poison in my veins

Momma telling me to look at what I’m doing to myself But I just wanna be fucking happy like everybody else They looking down on me like I’m the fucking villain I don’t wanna talk about it, I know they don’t wanna listen I was only tryna make up for the feeling I was missing If I’m only feeling pain, tell me, what’s the point of living Every day I’m waking up and tryna deal with the stress And I’ve been acting like I’m happy when my life is a mess

And all I know is that I got this fucking pain in my chest And I would love to get clean but I’m too fucking depressed, damn Momma’s panicking and losing her faith

Came to tell me ’bout a rehab in a beautiful place She said, “Just checking up if you was awake”

She broke down when she seen her son blue in the face and thought

No one ever told me it would be this hard Never really thought that it would take my life, though I just want the pain to fucking go away, eh, eh, eh-eh

Once upon a time we were the happiest couple Knew we always had each other, never had any trouble Always had each other’s backs if we happened to struggle

I left some people in the past and they were mad that I loved you

Said it’s only puppy love, I knew that wasn’t the case I remember getting nervous when I brought you on dates Conversations ’bout the future and copping our own place Talking ’bout the day you’d be sharing my last name I think I’d loved since the time that we met You had my heart and to be honest you was taking my breath All my homies said that I became a little obsessed Never thought that you would get up

And leave me fucking depressed, damn How could you leave me girl, I thought you were the one Treated you like a queen, never lied to you once Now I feel like I’m drowning and there’s water filling me lungs

I don’t wanna be alone, I’m afraid of who I’ve become You’re gone and I fucking hate it, I feel like I’m suffocating You ripped my fucking heart out and never tried to replace it Now when I think about you all I feel is disgust You were all I ever wanted, thanks for fucking it up Everybody that’s around me know that something is wrong They always try to tell me love is the strongest drug of ’em all You know what, huh, I’ma go and see for myself Let me pop a couple Xannys, I’ma see if it helps (it helps)

Oh my God, I think I finally feel alive again Oh my God, I tihnk I’m finally ’bout to smile again And I just started sleeping better at night I think I finally found the feeling of what heaven is like (heaven is like)

They’re getting rid of all my stress when I’m torn And I could tell that they’re relieving all my pressure for sure Soon my dealer told me that he couldn’t get me anymore Now I’m feeling way sicker than I ever did before Shit, I can’t even take a brief intermission Without me throwin’ up and feeling like a piece of me’s missing There was a time I needed love, now I need a perscription I’m done with living like this, I’d rather lethal injection ‘Cause all I think about is pills when I open my eyes

And every day I’m waking up and feeling broken inside When all I really wanted was to feel happy for once But now I’m losing myself and losing my family’s trust, damn I really think these drugs have taken my soul Probably pop ’em till they put me in the grave and I’m cold But I can’t point any fingers, I know the blame is my own I got addicted to a bitch and that’s the fate that I chose (fate that I chose)

No one ever told me it would be this hard Never really thought that it would take my life, though I just want the pain to fucking go away, eh, eh, eh-eh

No one ever told me it would be this hard Never really thought that it would take my life, though I just want the pain to fucking go away, eh, eh, eh-eh


Dual Diagnosis

Mental disorders, such as depression, often accompany an addiction. When co-occurring disorders are present, the individual has a dual diagnosis.

What Is A Dual Diagnosis?

Many people diagnosed with a substance use disorder (SUD) also suffer from a co-occurring mental or behavioral condition. This is known as a dual diagnosis. Individuals with a dual diagnosis require an integrated treatment plan that addresses both disorders as interconnected issues. According to the National Survey on Drug Use and Health (NSDUH), 45% of people with addiction have a co-occurring mental health disorder.

By seeking treatment for addiction and co-occurring behavioral and mental health disorders, you can work on successfully attaining the fulfilling and healthy life you deserve.

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What Is Mental Illness?

What Is Mental Illness?

Mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of. It is a medical problem, just like heart disease or diabetes.

Mental illnesses are health conditions involving changes in emotion, thinking or behavior (or a combination of these). Mental illnesses are associated with distress and/or problems functioning in social, work or family activities.

Mental illness is common. In a given year:

  • nearly one in five (19 percent) U.S. adults experience some form of mental illness
  • one in 24 (4.1 percent) has a serious mental illness*
  • one in 12 (8.5 percent) has a diagnosable substance use




Plight of those with ‘dual diagnosis’ most evident in the homeless

Dual diagnosis is an illness which a person experiences when they have both an addiction problem and a mental health issue

On a late evening in April 2017, I sat in an emergency accommodation hostel, a place where there are no facilities for you to stay during the day and so you are put out on to the streets every morning.

But I didn’t know that yet.

In fact, I didn’t know much at all about how the system worked.  more