Voices, Guns, Paranoia, PLUS, add to that I was self medicating with drugs and alcohol. This recipe was moving me to a Dark place
Voices in my head have me convinced the FBI is watching, I convince myself that I am messing with them!
I pick up a machete, and a confrontation with one of my life long friends, almost turns tragic!
Voices almost have me fighting one my best friends, literally over spilled milk! This was one of the main incidents, that led to the first of six or seven hospitalizations. This was the result of years of untreated addiction and mental health issues, and created a dangerous situation for me and a friend of over forty years!
Part 3 of 3
FROM: INSANE100 BLOG OWNER
To anyone following this blog, I appreciate your support! I started this blog in June of 2018 to share my story of addiction and hearing voices. I am not a great writer, so me and my sister thought putting my story on video might be a better option. In the mean time I have been posting articles dealing with mental health. I hope these articles have brought some attention to mental illness and/or addiction. While I will continue to post articles dealing w/ mental health/illness, I would also like to share my story, any feedback will be appreciated.
Perhaps the most infamous effect of meth on long-term users, though severely understudied, is psychosis. Often called “tweaking,” there are many aspects of psychosis—a severe mental disorder in which people lose contact with reality, very similar to acute paranoid schzophrenia.
A psychosis is generally characterized by:
- strange beliefs about things that aren’t plausible
- insects crawling under the skin
- feeling overly suspicious of people
- feeling like other people are ‘out to get you’
- hearing voices
- seeing things that aren’t there
- talking to people who aren’t real
- peeking out the window
- taking things apart and putting them back together
Often, the paranoia a user experiences becomes debilitating. Paranoia is a self-reinforcing loop of beliefs that escalates in a fearful emotional state. Meth can distort reality, altering belief systems, and lessens the ability to control emotions, making fear and anxiety prevalent. more